d trace
Ellen's love of her child in her love of him; these loves were not two
loves, but one love. And when walking one evening through the shadows,
as they spoke about the destiny we can trace in our lives, about life
and its loneliness, the conversation verged on the personal, and she
said, with a little accent of regret, but not reproachfully:--

"But, Ned, you could not live with anyone, at least not always. I think
you would sooner not live with anyone."

He did not dare to contradict her; he knew that she had spoken the
truth; and Ned was sorry he was giving pain to Ellen, for there was no
one he would have liked to please better. He regretted that he was what
he was, that his course was zig-zag. For a moment he regretted that
such a fate should have befallen Ellen. "I am not the husband that
would have suited her," he said.... And then, after a moment's
reflection, "I was her instinct; another would not have satisfied her
instinct; constancy is not everything. It's a pity I cannot love her
always, for none is more worthy of being loved."

They became friends; he knew there was no danger of her betraying him
again. Her responsibility ended with her money, and he told her how the
agitation was progressing.

"Oh, Ned, if I were only sure that your agitation was not directed
against religion I would follow you. But you will never believe in me."

"Yes, I believe in you. Come to Dublin with me; come to the meeting.
I'd like you to hear my speech."

"I would like to hear you speak, Ned; but I don't think I can go to the
meeting."

They were on their way to the station, and they walked some time
without speaking. Then, speaking suddenly and gravely as if prompted by
some deep instinct, Ellen said:--

"But if you fail, Ned, you will be an outcast in Ireland, and if that
happens you will go away, and I shall never see you again."

He turned and stood looking at her. That he should fail and become an
outcast were not at all unlikely. Her words seemed to him like a
divination! But it is the unexpected that happens, she said to herself,
and the train came up to the station, and he bade her good-bye, and
settled himself down in a seat to consider his speech for the last time.

"I shall say everything I dare, the moment is ripe; and the threat to
hold out is that Ireland is becoming a Protestant country. And the
argument to use is that the Catholics are leaving because there is no
joy in Ireland."

He went throu