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nd then--she came! Oh! Brace, a man can never know how a woman feels at such a moment--you see there were some sheets of your manuscript on the table--I was looking at them when the girl came in. Brace, she was quite awful; she frightened me terribly. She asked who I was and I told her--I thought that would at least make her see my side; explain things--but it did not! She was--she was"--Kathryn ventured a bolder dash--"she was quite violent. I cannot remember all she said--she said so much--a girl does when she realizes what _she_ must have realized. Oh! Brace, I tried to be kind, but I had to take your part and she turned me out!" In all this Northrup felt his way as one does along a narrow passage beset on either side with dangers. Characteristically he saw his own wrong in originally creating the situation. Not for an instant did he doubt Kathryn's story; indeed, she rose in his regard; for he felt for her deeply. He had, unwittingly, set a trap for her innocent, girlish feet; brought her to bay with what she could not possibly understand; and the belief that she had been merciful, had accepted, in silence, at a time when his trouble absorbed her, touched and humiliated him; and yet, try as he did to consider only Kathryn, he could not disregard Mary-Clare. He could not picture her in a coarse rage; the idea was repellent, but he acknowledged that the dramatic moment, lived through by two stranger-women with much at stake, was beyond his powers of imagination. The great thing that mattered now was that his duty, since a choice must be made, was to Kathryn. By every right, as he saw it, she must claim his allegiance. And yet, what was there to be done? Northrup was silent; his inability to express himself condemned him in her eyes, and yet, strangely enough, he had never been more desirable to her. "Marry me, dear. Let me prove my love to you. No matter what lies back there, I forgive everything! That is what love means to a woman like me." Love! This poor, shabby counterfeit. With a sickening sense of repulsion Northrup drew back, and maddeningly his book, not Kathryn, seemed to fill his aching brain. With this conception of love revealed--how blindly he had misunderstood. He tried to speak; did speak at last--he heard his words, but was not conscious of their meaning. "You are wrong, child. Whatever folly was committed in King's Forest was mine, not that girl's. I suppose I was a bit mad without knowi
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