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not send her away, or at least when the 'Bacchante' is finished?" "Because I don't see any necessity," I answered. "Besides, if I get any other model you would feel the same, wouldn't you, about her?" "Any model you kissed and desired. Yes, certainly." We were both standing now facing each other. Viola was deadly pale, as she always became in any conflict with me. I stood silent for a moment. I could not understand how she knew and could speak so definitely, but I could not lie and deny it, so I said nothing. "Do you mean that I am never to kiss another woman as long as I live?" I asked, a shade of derision coming into my voice. "No, only as long as we are what we are to each other." A chill fell upon me. I could not think of a time when she would not be with me, could not face the idea of change. The light fell across her very bright and waving hair, and caught the tips of her eyelashes and fell all round her exquisite, girlish figure, full of that wonderful grace I had never seen in any other. "It is a pity to make your love, which otherwise would be such a divine pleasure, a thing of restraint and fetters," I said slowly. "But it is a mutual obligation in love," she said in a very low tone. "It must be so. You would not wish me to kiss any of the men who come here, would you? They often ask me to." Her words gave me suddenly such a sense of surprise and shock, it was almost as if she had struck me in the eyes. "_No_," I said involuntarily, the instinct within me speaking without thought. "Well, that is what I say," answered Viola gently. "A great passion has its fetters. I don't see how it can be helped. You can have the promiscuous loves of all the women you meet, or you can have the absolute devotion of one; but I don't see how you can have the two." My heart beat, and the blood seemed going up to my head, confusing my reason. I felt angry because I knew she was right. "Well, really it seems that the first might be better if one's life is to be so limited." Viola did not answer at all. I turned and walked towards the window and stood looking out for a few minutes. When I turned round the room was empty. I went up to the studio, but again I could not paint. The pale, unhappy face of Viola came between me and the picture. To Veronica I hardly spoke. Her beauty neither attracted nor even pleased me. She was the cause of all this vague cloud rising up in my life, which had hit
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