Which men call earth.'"
It surprised me to hear Mrs. Ascher quote Milton. I did not somehow
expect to find that she knew or liked that particular poet. I am nearly
sure he would not have liked her.
"We cannot desecrate our union," she said, "by talking about money."
The subject to be discussed with Ascher was plainly not money, but Tim
Gorman's soul. Money only came incidentally. However, there was no use
arguing a point like that. There was no use arguing any point. I gave in
and promised to see Ascher about the matter. I prefer Ascher to Gorman
if I have to persuade any one to act midwife at the birth of a cash
register. Gorman would be certain to laugh. Ascher would at all events
listen to me courteously.
"To-morrow," said Mrs. Ascher.
"Certainly," I said. "To-morrow, quite early."
Mrs. Ascher uncoiled herself and rose from the floor. I struggled to my
feet rather stiffly, for my stool was far too low. She took my hand and
held it. I feared for a moment that she meant to kiss it.
"Thank you," she whispered. "Thank you again and again."
I took a long walk after I left the studio. I wanted to assimilate a new
fact, to get my mental vision into focus again.
Ever since I thought about things at all, I have regarded the "artist"
outlook upon life as a pose, and the claim to artistic temperament as an
excuse for selfishness and bad temper in private life. Mrs. Ascher had
convinced me that, in her case at least, the artist soul is a reality.
She was hysterical and ridiculous when she talked to me, but she was
sincere. She was not posing even when she crumpled herself upon the
floor and looked like a sick serpent. She was in simple earnest when
she mouthed her lines about money, money. There might be, probably were,
several other people in the world like Mrs. Ascher, might even be many
others. That was the new fact which I wanted to digest.
I reflected that I myself was kin to her, had in me, latent and
undeveloped, an artist's soul. I had felt the thing fluttering when
I lost my self-control and talked flamboyantly about the head of Tim
Gorman. It was necessary that I should keep a firm grip on myself. I
belong to a class which has lost everything except its sanity. I think
it is true of the Irish aristocracy that even its period of greatest
glory, even when Grattan was waving his arms and shouting "Esto
Perpetua!" it remained sane. I have nothing else left of what my
forefathers bequeathed
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