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say. He had never before heard anything like this from her. "Can't anybody help me out of it?" she said quietly. "Who? How? ... Do you mean--" "Yes, I mean it! I mean it! I--" And suddenly she broke down, in a strange, stammering, tearless way, opening the dry flood-gates over which rattled an avalanche of words--bitter, breathless phrases rushing brokenly from lips that shrank as they formed them. Plank sat inert, the corroding echo of the words clattering in his ears. And after a while he heard his own altered voice sounding persistently in repetition: "Don't say those things, Leila; don't tell me such things." "Why? Don't you care?" "Yes, yes, I care; but I can't do anything! I have no business to hear--to see you this way." "To whom can I speak, then, if I can not speak to you? To whom can I turn? Where am I to turn, in all the world?" "I don't know," he said fearfully; "the only way is to go on." "What else have I done? What else am I doing?" she cried. "Go on? Am I not trudging on and on through life, dragging the horror of it behind me through the mud, except when the horror drags me? To whom am I to turn--to other beasts like him?--sitting patiently around, grinning and slavering, awaiting their turn when the horror of it crushes me to the mud?" She stretched out a rounded, quivering arm, and laid the small fingers of the left hand on its flawless contour. "Look!" she said, exasperated, "I am young yet; the horror has not yet corrupted the youth in me. I am fashioned for some reason, am I not?--for some purpose, some happiness. I am not bad; I am human. What poison has soaked into me can be eliminated. I tell you, no woman is capable of being so thoroughly poisoned that the antidote proves useless. "But I tell you men, also, that unless she find that antidote she will surely reinfect herself. A man can not do what that man has done to me and expect me to recover unaided. People talk of me, and I have given them subjects enough! But--look at me! Straight between the eyes! Every law have I broken except that! Do you understand? That one, which you men consider yourselves exempt from, I have not broken--yet! Shall I speak plainer? It is the fashion to be crude. But--I can't be; I am unfashionable, you see." She laughed, her haunted eyes fixed on his. "Is there no chance for me? Because I drag his bedraggled name about with me is there no decent chance, no decent hope? Is there
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