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ently fitted to complete the material portion of his fortune and estate." Her voice had hardened as she spoke; now it rang a little at the end, and she laughed unpleasantly. "It appears that I was a little truer to myself than you gave me credit for--a little truer to you--a little less treacherous, less shameless, than you must have thought me. But I have gone to my limit of decency; ... and, were I ten times more in love with you than I am, I could not put away the position and power offered me. But I will not lie for it, nor betray for it. ... Do you remember, once you asked me for what reasons I dropped men from my list? And I told you, because of any falsehood or treachery, any betrayal of trust--and for no other reason. You remember? And did you suppose that elemental standard of decency did not include women--even such a woman as I?" She dropped one arm on the back of his chair and rested her chin on it, staring at space across his shoulders. "That's how it had to be, you see, when I found that I cared for you. There was nothing to do but to tell him. I was quite certain that it was all off; but I found that I didn't know the man. I knew he was sensitive, but I didn't know he was sensitive to personal ridicule only, and to nothing else in all the world that I can discover. I--I suppose, from my frankness to him, he has concluded that no ridicule could ever touch him through me. I mean, he trusts me enough to marry me. ... He will be safe enough, as far as my personal conduct is concerned," she added naively. "It seems that I am capable of love; but I am incapable of its degradation." Siward, leaning heavily forward over his desk, rested his head in both hands; and she stooped from her perch on the arm of the chair, pressing her hot cheeks against his hands--a moment only; then slipping to her feet, she curled up in a great arm-chair by the fire, head tipped back, blue gaze concentrated on him. "The thing for you to do," she said, "is to ambush me some night, and throw me into a hansom, and drive us both to the parson's. I'd hate you for it as much as I'd love you, but I'd make you an interesting wife." "I may do that yet," he said, lifting his head from his hands. "You've a year to do it in," she observed. ... "By the way, you're to take me in to dinner, as you did the first night. Do you remember? I asked Grace Ferrall then. I asked her again to-day. Heigho! It was years ago, wasn't it, that I d
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