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knew how to throw into the epithet. "Yes; it is over." "And what have they done,--those leviathans of the people?" Then Phineas told her what was the majority. "Is there anything the matter with you, Mr. Finn?" she said, looking at him suddenly. "Are you not well?" "Yes; I am very well." "Will you not sit down? There is something wrong, I know. What is it?" "I have simply been the greatest idiot, the greatest coward, the most awkward ass that ever lived!" "What do you mean?" "I do not know why I should come to tell you of it at this hour at night, but I have come that I might tell you. Probably because there is no one else in the whole world who would not laugh at me." "At any rate, I shall not laugh at you," said Lady Laura. "But you will despise me." "That I am sure I shall not do." "You cannot help it. I despise myself. For years I have placed before myself the ambition of speaking in the House of Commons;--for years I have been thinking whether there would ever come to me an opportunity of making myself heard in that assembly, which I consider to be the first in the world. To-day the opportunity has been offered to me,--and, though the motion was nothing, the opportunity was great. The subject was one on which I was thoroughly prepared. The manner in which I was summoned was most flattering to me. I was especially called on to perform a task which was most congenial to my feelings;--and I declined because I was afraid." "You had thought too much about it, my friend," said Lady Laura. "Too much or too little, what does it matter?" replied Phineas, in despair. "There is the fact. I could not do it. Do you remember the story of Conachar in the 'Fair Maid of Perth;'--how his heart refused to give him blood enough to fight? He had been suckled with the milk of a timid creature, and, though he could die, there was none of the strength of manhood in him. It is about the same thing with me, I take it." "I do not think you are at all like Conachar," said Lady Laura. "I am equally disgraced, and I must perish after the same fashion. I shall apply for the Chiltern Hundreds in a day or two." "You will do nothing of the kind," said Lady Laura, getting up from her chair and coming towards him. "You shall not leave this room till you have promised me that you will do nothing of the kind. I do not know as yet what has occurred to-night; but I do know that that modesty which has kept you s
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