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ever loved a woman?" she asked. There was a long pause. He sat in the chair again. "Listen, Mrs. Winnie"--he began at last. "Don't call me that!" she exclaimed. "Call me Evelyn--please." "Very well," he said--"Evelyn. I did not intend to make you unhappy--if I had had any idea, I should never have seen you again. I will tell you--what I have never told anybody before. Then you will understand." He sat for a few moments, in a sombre reverie. "Once," he said, "when I was young, I loved a woman--a quadroon girl. That was in New Orleans; it is a custom we have there. They have a world of their own, and we take care of them, and of the children; and every one knows about it. I was very young, only about eighteen; and she was even younger. But I found out then what women are, and what love means to them. I saw how they could suffer. And then she died in childbirth--the child died, too." Montague's voice was very low; and Mrs. Winnie sat with her hands clasped, and her eyes riveted upon his face. "I saw her die," he said. "And that was all. I have never forgotten it. I made up my mind then that I had done wrong; and that never again while I lived would I offer my love to a woman, unless I could devote all my life to her. So you see, I am afraid of love. I do not wish to suffer so much, or to make others suffer. And when anyone speaks to me as you did, it brings it all back to me--it makes me shrink up and wither." He paused, and the other caught her breath. "Understand me," she said, her voice trembling. "I would not ask any pledges of you. I would pay whatever price there was to pay--I am not afraid to suffer." "I do not wish you to suffer," he said. "I do not wish to take advantage of any woman." "But I have nothing in the world that I value!" she cried. "I would go away--I would give up everything, to be with a man like you. I have no ties--no duties--" He interrupted her. "You have your husband--" he said. And she cried out in sudden fury--"My husband!" "Has no one ever told you about my husband?" she asked, after a pause. "No one," he said. "Well, ask them!" she exclaimed. "Meantime, take my word for it--I owe nothing to my husband." Montague sat staring into the fire. "But consider my own case," he said. "_I_ have duties--my mother and my cousin--" "Oh, don't say any more!" cried the woman, with a break in her voice. "Say that you don't love me--that is all there is to say! And you
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