5. Bicycle Ride--Lenox
6. The Garden
7. Money Mantra
8. Fast Leader
9. Off The Map
10. Bicycle Ride--Utica
11. Displaced
12. Thwarted Escape
13. Breakdown
14. Bicycle Ride--St. Ignes
15. The Enchanted Taco
16. Ride To Heaven
17. On High
18. Where's My Tribe?
19. I'm Okay
20. The Last Supper
21. Bicycle Ride--The Continental Divide
Epilogue

Appendix A: Excerpts From WOOF!
Appendix B: Excerpts From "Welcome To Lakshmi"
Appendix C: Excerpts From "Sophisticated Sexuality"
Appendix D: Excerpts From Rama's Ads and Brochures

1. Bicycle Ride--Walden

After I left Rama's inner circle in 1985, I occasionally bicycled to
Walden Pond, where I read about Thoreau's experiment with
self-reliance. My seven years in the cult of Rama--Dr. Frederick Lenz,
who was known early on as Atmananda--had deeply shaken my confidence.
Atmananda often assured me that I was possessed by Negative Forces,
that I was barely able to function in the real world, and that I was
fortunate he did not drop me off at a mental institution. I met him in
1978, when I was seventeen.

Thoreau helped me recall a time, before Atmananda, when I was strong
and self-reliant. I had been an avid cyclist. Pedaling thousands of
miles each year helped strengthen both my legs and self-esteem.
Throughout my teenage years bicycling and self-confidence were
inextricably linked, and I grew to believe I could ride anywhere, under
any conditions. I tried to approach life with a similar gusto, which
may explain why, in 1979, Atmananda invited me to move with him to
southern California to start a spiritual centre. From 1979 to 1981, I
lived with him by the cliffs of La Jolla where I witnessed his rise to
power. Today, in 1993, he controls the minds of several hundred
computer consultants, businessmen, doctors, and lawyers. Each year he
extracts from them roughly ten million dollars.

As I gazed at Walden Pond in search of calm, the wind spawned new
waves, and the surface swelled with complexity. I recalled what
Atmananda had said after I returned from a five-day bike trip in
California. He announced in front of other disciples that my aura was
dark. He also said that I had been attacked by nocturnal,
mountain-dwelling Entities which "cause neurosis and psychosis,
obliterate lifetimes of spiritual evolution, and can possess your soul."

Atmananda's Entity-