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y on the man who had been in his employ; the interest of it would support him in his incapacity to do a man's work and earn a decent livelihood. My uncle said then I was never again to darken his doors. He desired me to leave no address; to keep secret to myself my destination, and forever after my whereabouts. I obeyed to the letter--now enough of myself. I have told you this because, as a man, I had not the face to sit here in your presence and hear your decision, without showing you my respect for your courage--and I have taken this way to show it." He held out his hand and Champney wrung it. "You don't know all, or you would have no respect," he said brokenly. The two men looked understandingly into each other's eyes, but they both felt intuitively that any prolongation of this unwonted emotional strain would be injurious to both, and the work in hand. They, at once, in tacit understanding of each other's condition, put aside "the things that were behind" and "reached forth to those that were before": they laid plans for the speedy execution of all that Champney's decision involved. "There is one thing I cannot do," he spoke with decision; "that is to see my mother before my commitment--or after. It is the only thing that will break me down. I need all the strength of control I possess to go through this thing." The priest knew better than to protest. "Telegraph her to-day what you think best to ease her suspense. I will write her, and ask you to deliver my letter to her after you have seen me through. I want _you_ to go up with me--to the very doors; and I want yours to be the last known face I see on entering. Another request: I don't want you, my mother, or any one else known to me, to communicate with me by letter, message, or even gift of any kind during my term, whether seven years or twenty. This is oblivion. I cease to exist, as an identity, outside the walls. I will make one exception: if my mother should fall ill, write me at once.--How she will live, I don't know! I dare not think--it would unsettle my reason; but she has friends; she has you, the Colonel, Tave, Elvira, Caukins; they will not see her want, and there's the house; it's in her name." He rose, shook himself together, drew a long breath. "Now let us go to work; the sooner it's over the better for all concerned.--I suppose the clothes I had on are worth nothing, but I'd like to look them over." He spoke indifferently and went int
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