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, why did you ever turn squaw-man? Why did you make me a breed?" "Look here! What ails you?" said the trader. "What ails me?" she mocked. "Why, I'm neither white nor red; I'm not even a decent Indian. I'm a--a--" She shuddered. "You made me what I am. You didn't do me the justice even to marry my mother." "Somebody's been saying things about you," said Gale, quietly, taking her by the shoulders. "Who is it? Tell me who it is." "No, no! It's not that! Nobody has said anything to my face; they're afraid of you, I suppose, but God knows what they think and say to my back." "I'll--" began the trader, but she interrupted him. "I've just begun to realize what I am. I'm not respectable. I'm not like other women, and never can be. I'm a squaw--a squaw!" "You're not!" he cried. "It's a nice word, isn't it?" "What's wrong with it?" "No honest man can marry me. I'm a vagabond! The best I can get is my bed and board, like my mother." "By God! Who offered you that?" Gale's face was whiter than hers now, but she disregarded him and abandoned herself to the tempest of emotion that swept her along. "He can play with me, but nothing more, and when he is gone another one can have me, and then another and another and another--as long as I can cook and wash and work. In time my man will beat me, just like any other squaw, I suppose, but I can't marry; I can't be a wife to a decent man." She was in the clutch of an hysteria that made her writhe beneath Gale's hand, choking and sobbing, until he loosed her; then she leaned exhausted against a post and wiped her eyes, for the tears were coming now. "That's all damned rot," he said. "There's fifty good men in this camp would marry you to-morrow." "Bah! I mean real men, not miners. I want to be a lady. I don't want to pull a hand-sled and wear moccasins all my life, and raise children for men with whiskers. I want to be loved--I want to be loved! I want to marry a gentleman." "Burrell!" said Gale. "No!" she flared up. "Not him nor anybody in particular, but somebody like him, some man with clean finger-nails." He found nothing humorous or grotesque in her measure of a gentleman, for he realized that she was strung to a pitch of unreason and unnatural excitement, and that she was in terrible earnest. "Daughter," he said, "I'm mighty sorry this knowledge has come to you, and I see it's my fault, but things are different now to what they were when I me
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