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shed sketches could compare with it. As for the lie involved, it will stand among my few good deeds; I know, at the judgment-bar. And she was satisfied. "I have never known what it was," she whispered, "to be fully happy until now." She closed her eyes, and when the lids fell I again thought that she had passed away. But no, there was still pulsation in her small, thin wrist. As she perceived my touch she smiled. "Yes, I am happy," she said again, though without audible sound. The old aunt returned; food was prepared, and she took some. I myself went out after wine that should be rich and pure. She rallied a little, but I did not leave her: her eyes dwelt upon me and compelled me to stay, or rather my conscience compelled me. It was a damp night, and I had a little fire made. The wine, fruit, flowers, and candles I had ordered made the bare place for the time being bright and fragrant. Aunt Martha dozed in her chair from sheer fatigue--she had watched many nights--but Miss Grief was awake, and I sat beside her. "I make you my executor," she murmured, "as to the drama. But my other manuscripts place, when I am gone, under my head, and let them be buried with me. They are not many--those you have and these. See!" I followed her gesture, and saw under her pillows the edges of two more copybooks like the one I had. "Do not look at them--my poor dead children!" she said tenderly. "Let them depart with me--unread, as I have been." Later she whispered, "Did you wonder why I came to you? It was the contrast. You were young--strong--rich--praised--loved--successful: all that I was not. I wanted to look at you--and imagine how it would feel. You had success--but I had the greater power. Tell me, did I not have it?" "Yes, Aaronna." "It is all in the past now. But I am satisfied." After another pause she said with a faint smile, "Do you remember when I fell asleep in your parlor? It was the good and rich food. It was so long since I had had food like that!" I took her hand and held it, conscience-stricken, but now she hardly seemed to perceive my touch. "And the smoking?" she whispered. "Do you remember how you laughed? I saw it. But I had heard that smoking soothed--that one was no longer tired and hungry--with a cigar." In little whispers of this sort, separated by long rests and pauses, the night passed. Once she asked if her aunt was asleep, and when I answered in the affirmative she said, "Help her to re
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