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from his pocket, he asked: "Do you permit, father?" Then, handing the cigarette-case, with great politeness, to Darvid, he added: "But, perhaps, you will smoke also?" Darvid, with thick wrinkles between his brows, shook his head and sat down. "Why did you leave the university soon after I went away?" asked he. "I inquired of you touching this several times by letter, but you have never given me a definite answer." "I beg pardon for that, father, but I am wonderfully slow in writing letters. I will explain all to you willingly in words--" Darvid interrupted: "I have no time for long talk, so tell me at once. Have you no love for science?" Maryan let out a streak of smoke from his lips, and spoke with deliberation: "I feel no repugnance whatever toward science. I read much, and mental curiosity is just one of the most emphatic traits of my individuality. In childhood I swallowed books in monumental numbers, but I have never learned school lessons. All were astonished at this, and still the thing is simple, it lies quite on the surface. Common individualities yield to rules, but energetic and higher ones will not endure them. Rules and duty are stables in which humanity confines its beasts, to prevent them from injuring fields under culture. Cattle and sheep stand patiently in the enclosures, higher organisms break them down and go out into freedom. I need absolute freedom in all things; and,-therefore, I stopped going to inns of science, which give out this science at stated hours, in certain sorts and doses. Though, even in this regard, I showed many good intentions, owing to the entreaties and persuasions of mamma. From legal studies I betook myself to the study of nature, and turned from that to philosophy, thinking that something would occupy me, and that I should be able to still that real storm of desperation which seized poor mamma. But I was not able. The professors were contemptible, my fellow-students a rabble. Society relations amused me in those days, and occupied me: imagination swept me farther and higher. So I stopped a labor which was annoying and irritating, and which, moreover, had no object." He quenched his cigarette stump in the ash-pan, and, sinking again into the deep armchair, continued: "So far as I have been able to observe, people study science regularly for one of two purposes: either they intend to devote themselves to what is called the salvation of mankind, or the
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