FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   41   42   43   44   45   46   47   48   49   50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65  
66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   >>   >|  
had woven such a web of mystery and romance,--when I should hear something of that father whose memory was curtained by such an impenetrable veil. But now it mattered not. Had I known that the blood of kings was in my veins, it would not have wakened one throb of ambition, kindled one ray of joy. I cared not for my lineage or kindred. I would not have disturbed the serenity that seemed settling on my mother's departing spirit, by one question relative to her past life, for the wealth of the Indies. She gave to Mrs. Linwood a manuscript which she had written while I was at school, and which was to have been committed to Peggy's care;--for surely Peggy, the strong, the robust, unwearied Peggy, would survive her, the frail, delicate, and stricken one! She told me this the night before she died, when at her own request I was left alone with her. I knew it was for the last time, but I had been looking forward steadily to this hour,--looking as I said before, as the iron-bound prisoner to the revolving knife, and like him I was outwardly calm. I knelt beside her and looked on her shadowy form, her white, transparent skin, her dark, still lustrous, though sunken eyes, till it seemed that her spirit, almost disembodied, mingled mysteriously with mine, in earnest of a divine communion. "I thank God, my Gabriella," she said, laying her hand blessingly on my bowed head, "that you submit to His holy will, in a spirit of childlike submission. I thank Him for raising up such a friend as Mrs. Linwood, when friend and comforter seemed taken from us. Love her, confide in her, be grateful to her, my child. Be grateful to God for sending her to soothe my dying hours with promises of protection and love for you, my darling, my child, my poor orphan Gabriella." "Oh mother," I cried, "I do not submit,--I cannot,--I cannot! Dreadful thoughts are in my heart--oh, my mother, God is very terrible. Leave me not alone to meet his awful judgments. Put your arms round me, my mother, and let me lie close to your bosom, I will not hurt you, I will lie so gently there. Death cannot separate us, when we cling so close together. Leave me not alone in the world, so cold, so dark, so dreary,--oh, leave me not alone!" Thus I clung to her, in the abandonment of despair, while words rushed unhidden from my lips. "Oh, my Gabriella, my child, my poor smitten lamb!" she cried, and I felt her heart fluttering against mine like a dying bird. "Sorrow has
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   41   42   43   44   45   46   47   48   49   50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65  
66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

mother

 

spirit

 

Gabriella

 

Linwood

 

friend

 
submit
 

grateful

 

darling

 

curtained

 

orphan


protection
 

promises

 

soothe

 

memory

 

thoughts

 

Dreadful

 

sending

 
father
 

submission

 

raising


childlike

 

mattered

 

comforter

 

impenetrable

 

confide

 

terrible

 
abandonment
 
despair
 

dreary

 
rushed

unhidden

 

Sorrow

 

fluttering

 
smitten
 

romance

 

judgments

 

mystery

 

separate

 
gently
 

lineage


kindred

 

delicate

 

stricken

 

request

 

forward

 

steadily

 
survive
 
manuscript
 

question

 

departing