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rious scrape that had begun in bravado and ended by a public thrashing. He had poached a trout from the waters of a neighbouring landowner, who had welcomed the opportunity to make himself more than usually objectionable. And on the morning before his thrashing, Jervaise had come into my study and confessed to me that he was dreading the coming ordeal. He was not afraid of the physical pain, he told me, but of the shame of the thing. We were near to becoming friends that morning. He confessed to no one but me. But when the affair was over--he bore himself very well--he resumed his usual airs of superiority, and snubbed me when I attempted to sympathise with him. And I saw, now, just the same boyish dread and perplexity that I had seen when he made his confession to me at Oakstone. He looked to me, indeed, absurdly unchanged by the sixteen years that had separated the two experiences. "You know, Melhuish," he said; "I'm not altogether blaming Brenda in one way." "Do you think she's really in love with Banks?" I asked. "I don't know," he said. "How can any one know? But it has been going on a long time--weeks, anyhow. They were all getting nervous about it at home. The mater told me when I came down this afternoon. She wanted me to talk to B. about it. I was going to. She doesn't take any notice of Olive. Never has." He stopped and looked at me with an appeal in his face that begged contradiction. We were standing still in the moonlight at the edge of the wood and the accident of our position made me wonder if Jervaise's soul also hesitated between some gloomy prison of conventional success and the freedom of beautiful desires. I could find no words, however, to press that speculation and instead I attempted, rather nervously, to point the way towards what I regarded as the natural solution of the immediate problem. "Come," I said, "the idea of a marriage between Banks and your sister doesn't appear so unreasonable. The Bankses are evidently good old yeoman stock on the father's side. It is a mere accident of luck that you should be the owners of the land and not they." "Theoretically, yes!" he said with a hint of impatience. "But we've got to consider the opinions--prejudices, if you like--of all my people--to say nothing of the neighbours." "Oh! put the neighbours first," I exclaimed. "It's what we think other people will think that counts with most of us." "It isn't," Jervaise returned gloomily. "You d
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