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ld envelope, and tossed it across. Winthrop opened the envelope; it contained a small sheet of paper, upon which, in a youthful immature handwriting, these words were written: "MY DEAR LANSE,--I have stayed here by myself all day. And I have been very unhappy. I have not let anybody know that you were gone. "I feel as though I must have done wrong, and yet I don't know how. "Perhaps you will come back. I shall hope that you will. I will wait here for your answer. "I will come to you at any time if--you know what. And I hope you will soon send for me. "Your affectionate wife, "MARGARET." "You see there's no trace of jealousy," Lanse commented, in his generalizing way; "she wasn't jealous, because she wasn't in love with me--never had been. Of course she _thought_ she loved me--she never would have married me otherwise; but the truth was that at that time she had no more conception of what real love is than a little snow image: that was one of the reasons why I had first liked her. I've no doubt she _was_ horribly miserable when she wrote that letter, as she says she was. But there was no love in her misery, it was all duty; I grant you that with her that was a tremendously strong feeling. Well, I answered her letter, I told her she had better go and live with Aunt Katrina as before, that that was the best place for her. I told her that I should stay where I was for the present, and on no account was she to try to follow me; that was the one thing I would not endure; I had to frighten her about that, because she had so much obstinacy--steadfastness if you like--that if I had not done so, and effectually, she would certainly have started in pursuit--prayer-book in hand, poor child! She wrote to me once more, repeating her offer to come whenever I should wish it; but I didn't wish it then, and didn't answer. Eight years have passed, and I haven't answered yet. But now I think I shall try it." Winthrop had sat gazing at the little sheet, with the faded girlish handwriting. Hot feelings were surging within him, he felt that he must take a firm hold of himself; this made his manner calm. "What do you want of her?" he said. "Aunt Katrina couldn't get on a day without her." "Aunt Katrina would give her up to me," said Lanse, securely. (And Winthrop knew that this was true.) "What do I want of her? I want to have a home of my own again, a place where I can be comfor
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