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ler Christian faith has still to create around it those venerable associations and habits which buttress individual feebleness and diminish the individual effort. One early February morning, just before dawn, Robert stretched out his hand for his wife and found her kneeling beside him. The dim mingled light showed him her face vaguely--her clasped hands, her eyes. He looked at her in silence, she at him--there seemed to be a strange sheen as of battle between them. Then he drew her head down to him. 'Catherine,' he said to her in a feeble intense whisper, 'would you leave me without comfort, without help, at the end?' 'Oh, my beloved!' she cited, under her breath, throwing her arms round him, 'if you would but stretch out your hand to the true comfort--the true help--the Lamb of God sacrificed for us!' He stroked her hair tenderly. 'My weariness might yield--my true best self never. I know whom I have believed. Oh, my darling, be content. Your misery, your prayers hold me back from God--from that truth and that trust which can alone be honestly mine. Submit, my wife! Leave me in God's hands.' She raised her head. His eyes were bright with fever, his lips trembling, his whole look heavenly. She bowed herself again, with a quiet burst of tears, and all indescribable self abasement. They had had their last struggle, and once more he had conquered! Afterward the cloud lifted from him. Depression and irritation disappeared. It seemed to her often as though he lay already on the breast of God; even her, wifely love grew timid and awestruck. Yet he did not talk much of immortality, of reunion. It was like a scrupulous child that dares not take for granted more than it's father has allowed it to know. At the same time, it was plain to those about him that the only realities to him in a world of shadows were God--love--the soul. One day he suddenly caught Catherine's hands, drew her face to him, and studied it with his, glowing and hollow eyes, as though he would draw it into his soul. 'He made it,' he said hoarsely, as he let her go--'this love--this yearning. And in life He only makes us yearn that He may satisfy. He cannot lead us to the end and disappoint the craving He himself set in us. No, no--could you--Could I--do it? And He, the source of love, of justice----' Flaxman arrived a few days afterward. Edmondson had started for London the night before, leaving Elsmere better again, able to drive and
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