FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93  
94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   >>   >|  
hing hard. "You say, I'll never know what love is. Blind! I've always loved you until this moment, when you killed my love. You say I was untrue. It's false. I swear it before--you, as you were once,--when you were my god. Had you trusted me, as I trusted you, there'd have been no thought of unfaithfulness in your mind." The woman sank back in the chair, her face covered, her whole body trembling; but Asa Arnold went on like the storm. "Yes, I was ever true to you. From the first moment we met, and against my own beliefs. You didn't see. You expected me to protest it daily: to repeat the tale as a child repeats its lesson for a comfit. Blind, I say, blind! You'll charge that I never told you that I loved you. You wouldn't have believed me, even had I done so. Besides, I didn't realize that you doubted, until the time when you were learning--" he walked jerkily across the room and took up his hat,--"learning the thing you threw in my face." He started to leave, but stopped in the doorway, without looking back. "You tell me you've suffered. For the first time in my life I say to another human being: I hope so." He turned, unsteadily, down the steps. "Wait," pleaded the woman. "Wait!" The man did not stop, or turn. Camilla Maurice sank back in the chair, weak as one sick unto death, her mind a throbbing, whirling chaos,--as of a patient under an anaesthetic. Something she knew she ought to do, intended doing, and could not. She groped desperately, but overwhelming, insistent, there had developed in her a sudden, preventing tumult--in paradox, a confusion in rhythm--like the beating of a great hammer on an anvil, only incredibly more swift than blows from human hands. Over and over again she repeated to herself the one word: "wait," "wait," "wait," but mechanically now, without thought as to the reason. Then, all at once, soft, all-enfolding, kindly Nature wrapped her in darkness. She awoke with the big collie licking her hand, and a numbness of cramped limbs that was positive pain. A long-necked pullet was standing in the doorway, with her mouth open; others stood wondering, beyond. The sun had moved until it no longer shone in at the tiny south windows, and the shadow of the house had begun to lengthen. Camilla stood up in the doorway; uncertain, dazed. A great lump was on her forehead, which she stroked absently, without surprise at its presence. She looked about the yard, and, her breath coming more qu
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93  
94   95   96   97   98   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   >>   >|  



Top keywords:
doorway
 

Camilla

 

learning

 
trusted
 

thought

 
moment
 

incredibly

 

repeated

 

hammer

 

presence


looked

 
tumult
 

intended

 

groped

 

Something

 

coming

 

breath

 

desperately

 

paradox

 
confusion

rhythm

 

preventing

 
sudden
 

overwhelming

 

insistent

 

developed

 

beating

 
reason
 

pullet

 
necked

standing

 

anaesthetic

 

positive

 

longer

 
wondering
 

shadow

 

windows

 
cramped
 

numbness

 

forehead


mechanically

 
absently
 

stroked

 

enfolding

 

kindly

 

lengthen

 

collie

 

licking

 

uncertain

 

Nature