y will neither be pressing for a
settlement, nor exacting when making it; besides, you have not overdrawn
very heavily, After all."
"Overdrawn, said you?--did you say overdrawn, Mr. Kennyfeck?"
"Yes, sir. In the account last forwarded, your debit was eleven thousand
four hundred and forty pounds; since that you have drawn--but not for
any large amount."
"Overdrawn!" repeated Cashel, as though his thoughts had never wandered
beyond the first shock of that fact; then rallying into something
like his habitual easy humor, he said, "I am, I need not tell you, the
stupidest man of business that ever breathed, so pray forgive me if
I ask you once more if I understood you aright, that I have not only
expended all the money I owned in these people's hands, but actually had
contracted a debt to them?"
"That is the case, sir," said Kennyfeck, gravely.
A deep groan broke from Cashel, and he sat silent and still.
"I would wish to observe, sir," said Kennyfeck, who was shocked at the
alteration a few moments had made in the young man's countenance--"I
would wish to observe, sir, that if you desire a sum of money for any
purpose--"
"Stay--let me interrupt you here," said Cashel, laying his hand on
Kennyfeck's arm, and using a tone whose earnest distinctness thrilled
through his hearer's heart; "I should deceive you, were you to suppose
that it is the want of money gives me the pain I am now suffering. That
I had believed myself rich a few moments back, and now found myself a
beggar, could not give one-thousandth part of that suffering which I
feel here. I have braved poverty in every form, and I could brave it
again; but I 'll tell you what it is that now cuts me to the soul, and
lowers me to myself. It is that, in a senseless, heartless career, I
should have squandered the wealth by which I once imagined I was to
bless and succor hundreds. It is to think, that of all the gold I have
wasted, not one memory has been purchased of a sick-bed consoled, a
suffering lessened, a sinking spirit encouraged,--I have done nothing,
actually nothing, save pamper vice and sensual heartlessness. I came to
this kingdom a few months back, my very dreams filled with schemes of
benevolence; I felt as if this wealth were given to me that I might show
the world how much of good may be done by one who, having experienced
narrow fortune, should best know how to relieve it in others; and now,
here am I, the wealth and the high aspirations alik
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