treachery against a poor creature
they are so fond of. They must undoubtedly be the persons they appear to
be--what folly to doubt it! The air, the dress, the dignity of women of
quality. How unworthy of them, and of my charity, concluded I, is this
ungenerous shadow of suspicion!

So, recovering my stupefied spirits, as well as they could be recovered,
(for I was heavier and heavier! and wondered to Dorcas what ailed me,
rubbing my eyes, and taking some of her snuff, pinch after pinch, to very
little purpose,) I pursued my employment: but when that was over, all
packed up that I designed to be packed up; and I had nothing to do but to
think; and found them tarry so long; I thought I should have gone
distracted. I shut myself into the chamber that had been mine; I
kneeled, I prayed; yet knew not what I prayed for: then ran out again: it
was almost dark night, I said: where, where, where was Mr. Lovelace?

He came to me, taking no notice at first of my consternation and
wildness, [what they had given me made me incoherent and wild:] All goes
well, said he, my dear!--A line from Capt. Tomlinson!

All indeed did go well for the villanous project of the most cruel and
most villanous of men!

I demanded his aunt!--I demanded his cousin!--The evening, I said, was
closing!--My head was very, very bad, I remember I said--and it grew
worse and worse.--

Terror, however, as yet kept up my spirits; and I insisted upon his going
himself to hasten them.

He called his servant. He raved at the sex for their delay: 'twas well
that business of consequence seldom depended upon such parading,
unpunctual triflers!

His servant came.

He ordered him to fly to his cousin Leeson's, and to let Lady Betty and
his cousin know how uneasy we both were at their delay: adding, of his
own accord, desire them, if they don't come instantly, to send their
coach, and we will go without them. Tell them I wonder they'll serve me
so!

I thought this was considerately and fairly put. But now, indifferent as
my head was, I had a little time to consider the man and his behaviour.
He terrified me with his looks, and with his violent emotions, as he
gazed upon me. Evident joy-suppressed emotions, as I have since
recollected. His sentences short, and pronounced as if his breath were
touched. Never saw I his abominable eyes look as then they looked--
Triumph in them!--fierce and wild; and more disagreeable than the women's
at the vile house