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for compassion that a desperate gamester will often give the bystanders. How much can happen in a second's space; how many things depend on a throw of the die! "That was his last cartridge, of course," said the croupier, smiling after a moment's silence, during which he picked up the coin between his finger and thumb and held it up. "He is a cracked brain that will go and drown himself," said a frequenter of the place. He looked round about at the other players, who all knew each other. "Bah!" said a waiter, as he took a pinch of snuff. "If we had but followed _his_ example," said an old gamester to the others, as he pointed out the Italian. Everybody looked at the lucky player, whose hands shook as he counted his bank-notes. "A voice seemed to whisper to me," he said. "The luck is sure to go against that young man's despair." "He is a new hand," said the banker, "or he would have divided his money into three parts to give himself more chance." The young man went out without asking for his hat; but the old watch-dog, who had noted its shabby condition, returned it to him without a word. The gambler mechanically gave up the tally, and went downstairs whistling _Di tanti Palpiti_ so feebly, that he himself scarcely heard the delicious notes. He found himself immediately under the arcades of the Palais-Royal, reached the Rue Saint Honore, took the direction of the Tuileries, and crossed the gardens with an undecided step. He walked as if he were in some desert, elbowed by men whom he did not see, hearing through all the voices of the crowd one voice alone--the voice of Death. He was lost in the thoughts that benumbed him at last, like the criminals who used to be taken in carts from the Palais de Justice to the Place de Greve, where the scaffold awaited them reddened with all the blood spilt here since 1793. There is something great and terrible about suicide. Most people's downfalls are not dangerous; they are like children who have not far to fall, and cannot injure themselves; but when a great nature is dashed down, he is bound to fall from a height. He must have been raised almost to the skies; he has caught glimpses of some heaven beyond his reach. Vehement must the storms be which compel a soul to seek for peace from the trigger of a pistol. How much young power starves and pines away in a garret for want of a friend, for lack of a woman's consolation, in the midst of millions of fellow-cr
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