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and blood out of a hundred of her children, day by day." A servant brought in tea, delightfully served. There were small yellow china cups, pale tea with a faint, aromatic odour, thick cream, strawberries and cakes. "If only you would appreciate it," she declared, "you are really rather a privileged person. No one has tea with me here." "I do appreciate it," he assured her, "perhaps more than you think." There was a moment's silence. As he was taking his cup from her fingers, their eyes met, and she looked away again almost immediately. "I wish," she said, "that you would tell me more about yourself--what you did in America, what your life has been? You are rather a mysterious person, aren't you?" "In a sense, perhaps, I must seem so," he admitted. "You see, I was an orphan very early. There wasn't any one who cared how I grew up, and I wandered a good deal. The earlier part of my life I was over here--I was at Heidelberg University, bye the bye--and in Paris for two years studying art, of all things! Then something--I don't know what it was--called me to America, and I found it hard to come back. It's a big country, you know, Lady Elisabeth. It gets hold of you. If it hadn't driven me out, I doubt whether I should ever have left it." "But what was it first inspired you with this--well, wouldn't you call it a passion--for championing the cause of the people?" He shook his head. "Born in me, I suppose. I have watched them, lived with them, and then I have been through the whole gamut of Socialistic literature. It is not worth reading, most of it. The essential facts are there to look at, half-a-dozen phrases, a single field of view. It's all very simple." "Now I am going to ask you something else," she went on. "That first night when we talked together, you seemed so full of hope, so dauntless. Since then, is it my fancy--since you came back from Manchester--are you a little disappointed 'with life? Don't you know in your heart that you've done what's best?" "I wish I did," he answered simply. "My common sense tells me that I have chosen well, and then sometimes, in the nights, or when I am alone, other thoughts come to me, and I feel almost as though I had been faithless, as though I had simply chosen the easier way. Look how pleasant it is all being made for me! I am no longer an outcast; I bask in the sun of your uncle's patronage; people ask me to dinner, seek my friendship, people whom I fe
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