ook on me with a friendly eye. The retired
life I now lead is much more congenial to my feelings, and much more
favorable to religious enjoyment, than when I was kept in a continual
bustle of company. Yes, it is in retirement that our affections are
raised to God, and our souls refreshed and quickened by the influences
of the Holy Spirit. If we would live near the threshold of Heaven, and
daily take a glance at our promised inheritance we must avoid not only
worldly, but religious dissipation. Strange as it may seem, I do believe
there is something like religious dissipation, in a Christian's being
so entirely engrossed in religious company, as to prevent his spiritual
enjoyments."
In Baltimore, through the influence of Dr. Judson, she had the best
medical advice and attendance the city could give; and was put upon a
course of mercury in order to produce salivation. She denied herself to
company, and thus secured time for writing, in which employment she was
assisted by "a pious excellent young lady," whom she engaged as a
copyist. Her correspondence was extensive, and occupied much of her
time. One interesting letter from England informed her that Mr.
Butterworth had put at interest for her Burman school L100 sterling, and
that a larger sum had been collected. Her English physicians insisted
that she could _not live_ in India, and urged her and her husband to
come to England, but her determination to return to Burmah was
unalterable.
On the 19th of February she writes to her friend in Waterville: "Your
kind and affectionate letter found me in bed, so weak that I was obliged
to read it at intervals; but it afforded heartfelt consolation. Thanks
to our Heavenly Father whose guardian care and love I have _so largely_
experienced. I am now much better, and once more enjoy the prospect of
gaining that degree of health which will allow my return to Burmah,
there to spend my remaining days, few or many, in endeavouring to guide
immortal souls to that dear Redeemer, whose presence can make joyful a
sick chamber, a dying bed.
"For the last month I have been _very ill_. The disease seemed to be
removed from the liver to the lungs. I have raised blood twice, which
the physicians thought proceeded from the lungs, though I am inclined to
think it was from the throat. I was however bled so frequently and so
largely that my strength was quite reduced. At present I am free from
every unfavorable symptom, but am still weak.
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