ys and nights I
never closed my eyes to sleep! This circumstance, together with dwelling
on the anticipated meeting with my friends, occasioned the most alarming
apprehensions.
"I reached my father's about a fortnight after my arrival in the
country--and had not then been able to procure a single night's sleep.
The scene which ensued brought my feelings to a crisis, nature was quite
exhausted, and I began to fear would sink. To be concise, my health
began to decline in a most alarming manner, and the pain in my side and
cough returned. I was kept in a state of constant excitement by daily
meeting my old friends and acquaintances; and during the whole six weeks
of my residence at my father's, I had _not one_ night's quiet rest. I
felt the cold most severely, and found, as that increased, my cough
increased."
She goes on to say that under these circumstances, she was strongly
urged by Dr. Judson, a brother of her husband, who was then in
Baltimore, to remove to the south, and take up her residence for the
winter with him at his boarding-house. She says that painful as it was
to leave her dear family, yet as she knew that freedom from company and
excitement, as well as a milder climate, were absolutely essential to
her recovery, she was induced to go. She adds that her health is so far
re-established that she is able to give five hours a day to study and to
the compilation of her History of the Burman Mission, a work she had
very much at heart.
The next passage in the letter is of touching interest, as showing the
meekness of the Christian spirit in receiving a rebuke, whether merited
or not.
"Your kind hint relative to my being injured by the lavish attention of
our dear friends in this country, has much endeared you to my heart. I
am well aware that human applause has a tendency to elate the soul, and
render it less anxious about spiritual enjoyments, particularly if the
individual is conscious of deserving it. But I must say, that since my
return to this country, I have often been affected to tears, in hearing
the undeserved praises of my friends, feeling that I was far, very far
from being what they imagined: and that there are thousands of poor
obscure Christians, whose excellences will never be known in this world,
who are a thousand times more deserving of the tender regard of their
fellow-Christians than I am.
"Yet I trust I am grateful to my Heavenly Father for inclining the
hearts of his children to l
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