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e play of the flames. For some minutes we had been silent. "In Paris, perhaps--" she began suddenly, then stopped short and became again silent. But I was fast dropping into melancholy and wanted to hear her voice, and I said: "Well? In Paris--" She looked at me, her eyes curiously somber, but did not speak. I insisted: "You were saying, Desiree, in Paris--" She made a quick movement and laughed unpleasantly. "Yes, my friend--but it is useless. I was thinking of you. 'Ah! A card! Mr. Paul Lamar. Show him in, Julie. But no, let him wait--I am not at home.' That, my friend, would be in Paris." I stared at her. "For Heaven's sake, Desiree, what nonsense is this?" She disregarded my question as she continued: "Yes, that is how it would be. Why do I talk thus? The mountains hypnotize me. The snow, the solitude--for I am alone. Your brother, what is he? And you, Paul, are scarcely aware of my existence. "I had my opportunity with you, and I laughed it away. And as for the future--look! Do you see that waste of snow and ice, glittering, cold, pitiless? Ha! Well, that is my grave." I tried to believe that she was merely amusing herself, but the glow in her eyes did not proceed from mirth. I followed her fixed gaze across the trackless waste and, shivering, demanded: "What morbid fancy is this, Desiree? Come, it is scarcely pleasant." She rose and crossed the yard or so of ground between us to my side. I felt her eyes above me, and try as I would I could not look up to meet them. Then she spoke, in a voice low but curiously distinct: "Paul, I love you." "My dear Desiree!" "I love you." At once I was myself, calm and smiling. I was convinced that she was acting, and I dislike to spoil a good scene. So I merely said: "I am flattered, senora." She sighed, placing her hand on my shoulder. "You laugh at me. You are wrong. Have I chosen this place for a flirtation? Before, I could not speak; now you must know. There have been many men in my life, Paul; some fools, some not so, but none like you. I have never said, 'I love you.' I say it now. Once you held my hand--you have never kissed me." I rose to my feet, smiling, profoundly fatuous, and made as if to put my arm around her. "A kiss? Is that all, Desiree? Well--" But I had mistaken her tone and overreached. Not a muscle did she move, but I felt myself repulsed as by a barrier of steel. She
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