mask, I might play, too."
"Did you learn this at the convent?" gasped Crailey.
"There was a world there in miniature," she answered, speaking very
quickly. "I think all people are made of the same materials, only in
such different proportions. I think a little world might hold as much as
the largest, if you thought it all out hard enough, and your experience
might be just as broad and deep in a small corner of the earth as
anywhere else. But I don't know! I want to understand--I want to
understand everything! I read books, and there are people--but no one
who tells me what I want--I--"
"Stop." He lifted his hand. "I won't act; I shall never 'play' for you
again." He was breathless; the witching silence was nothing to what
stirred him now. A singular exaltation rose in him, together with the
reckless impulse to speak from the mood her vehement confidence had
in-spired. He gave way to it.
"I know, I know," he said huskily. "I understand all you mean, all you
feel, all you wish. It is all echoing here, and here, and here!" He
touched his breast, his eyes, and his forehead with the fingers of his
long and slender hand. "We sigh and strain our eyes and stretch out our
arms in the dark, groping always for the strange blessing that is just
beyond our grasp, seeking for the precious unknown that lies just over
the horizon! It's what they meant by the pot of gold where the rainbow
ends--only, it may be there, after all!"
They stopped unconsciously, and remained standing at the lower end of
the Carewe hedge. The western glow had faded, and she was gazing at him
through the darkness, leaning forward, never dreaming that her tight
grasp had broken the sticks of the little pink fan.
"Yes," she whispered, eagerly. "You are right: you understand!"
He went on, the words coming faster and faster: "We are haunted--you and
I--by the wish to know all things, and by the question that lies under
every thought we have: the agonizing Whither? Isn't it like that? It
is really death that makes us think. You are a good Catholic: you go
to mass; but you wish to know. Does God reign, or did it all happen?
Sometimes it seems so deadly probable that the universe just was, no
God to plan it, nothing but things; that we die as sparrows die, and the
brain is all the soul we have, a thing that becomes clogged and stops
some day. And is that all?"
She shivered slightly, but her steadfast eyes did not shift from him. He
threw back his head
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