FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   123   124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134  
135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   >>   >|  
nd on George's shoulder. With the other she patted his hair. "What's he scolding my boy for?" George grinned at Bailly. "Don't you see, sir, if I were as bad as you think she couldn't do that?" Bailly nodded thoughtfully. "If you've served as you say you must be merely hiding the good." XXX To himself at times George acknowledged his badness, in Bailly's terms at least. He sometimes sympathized with Allen's point of view, even while he heckled that angular man who often sat with him and Goodhue, talking about strikes, and violence, and drunkenness as the quickest recreation for men who had no time for play. He longed to tell Allen in justification that he had walked out of the working class himself. Later, staring at Sylvia's portrait, he would grow hard again. Men, he would repeat, wanted to smash down obstacles only because they didn't have the strength to scramble over. He had the strength. But Bailly would intrude again. What about the congenitally unsound? "I'm not unsound," he would say to himself, studying the picture. And he suspected that it was because he didn't want to be good that he was afraid of seeing too much of Betty Alston and her kindliness and the reminiscence of tears in her eyes. If Squibs only knew how blessedly easy it would be to turn good, to let ambition and Sylvia slip into a remote and ugly memory! More frequently now he stared at her portrait, forcing into his heart the thought of hatred and into her face the expression of it; for the more hatred there was between them, the smaller was the chance of his growing weak. He longed for the approaching escape from his gravest temptation. When he was through college and definitely in New York he would find it simpler to be hard. For that matter, why should he grow weak? He had achieved a success far beyond the common. He would graduate president of his class, captain of the football team, although he had tried to throw both honours to Goodhue; member of the club that had drawn the best men of his year, a power in the Senior Council; the man who had done most for Princeton; a high-stand scholar; and, most important of all, one who had acquired with his education a certain amount of culture and an ease of manner in any company. Allen was still angular, as were most of those other men who had come here, like George, with nothing behind them. In his success he saw no miracle, no luck beyond Squibs' early interest. What he ha
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   123   124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134  
135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

George

 

Bailly

 
angular
 

unsound

 
strength
 

Squibs

 
hatred
 
success
 

Sylvia

 

portrait


longed
 
Goodhue
 

gravest

 

temptation

 

approaching

 
escape
 

college

 

simpler

 
growing
 

miracle


stared

 

interest

 
forcing
 

frequently

 

remote

 

memory

 

thought

 
smaller
 
expression
 

chance


member

 

honours

 

acquired

 
education
 
important
 

Council

 

Senior

 
scholar
 

achieved

 

manner


company

 
Princeton
 

captain

 
amount
 

football

 
president
 

culture

 

common

 

graduate

 

matter