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oal. The hoarse baying of the hungry wolves around the house had shaken the pencil from her fingers--Siberian wolves they were, racing over the arid deserts of debt, large and sharp-toothed, ever increasing in number and ferocity, ready to tear the very door down. There are no wolves like those debt sends against a house. Every knock at the door, every strange footstep up the approach, every letter that came, was like the gnawing and gnashing of savage teeth. Iden could plant the potatoes and gossip at the stile, and put the letters unopened on the mantelshelf--a pile of bills over his head where he slept calmly after dinner. Iden could plant potatoes, and cut trusses of hay, and go through _his_ work to appearance unmoved. Amaryllis could not draw--she could not do it; her imagination refused to see the idea; the more she concentrated her mind, the louder she heard the ceaseless grinding and gnashing of teeth. Potatoes can be planted and nails can be hammered, bill-hooks can be wielded and faggots chopped, no matter what the inward care. The ploughman is deeply in debt, poor fellow, but he can, and does, follow the plough, and finds, perhaps, some solace in the dull monotony of his labour. Clods cannot feel. A sensitive mind and vivid imagination--a delicately-balanced organization, that almost lives on its ideas as veritable food--cannot do like this. The poet, the artist, the author, the thinker, cannot follow their plough; their work depends on a serene mind. But experience proves that they _do_ do their work under such circumstances. They do; how greatly then they must be tortured, or for what a length of time they must have suffered to become benumbed. Amaryllis was young, and all her feelings unchecked of Time. She could not sketch--that was a thing of useless paper and pencil; what was wanted was money. She could not read, that was not real; what was wanted was solid coin. So the portfolio was thrust aside, neglected and covered with dust, but she came every day to her flowers in the window-niche. She had drawn up there in the bitter cold of February and March, without a fire, disdainful of ease in the fulness of her generous hope. Her warm young blood cared nothing for the cold, if only by enduring it she could assist those whom she loved. There were artists in the Flamma family in London who made what seemed to her large incomes, yet whose names had never been seen in a newspaper criticis
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