such and
such sensations; where are the feelings of ecstasy which I expected?'
The uninstructed soul often confuses feelings with assurance,
particularly if in the moment of deliverance some special wave of
feeling swept over the soul. When this wave subsides the sensations are
different, and the soul is tempted to doubt the reality of the
transaction.
Personally, I am always thankful that both in the matter of conversion
and getting a clean heart, the Lord left me to claim the blessing by
naked faith. I had little or no special feelings; I just had to go on
believing. I stepped out, as upon thin air, and found my feet on the
rock.
For lack of knowledge many souls imagine that Holiness will mean
ecstasy, or that the sanctified soul will not feel temptation; and
Satan feeds the anxious thought until sometimes the hand of faith is
unclasped, and the blessing lost for the time being.
Later on the faithful soul learns to hold on, to resist the enemy's
insidious attacks, and understands the meaning of the lines--
_Quick as the apple of the eye
The first approach of sin to feel_.
Again, _unwatchfulness_ is a hole, a danger against which I warn
you. Recently saved people, and those who have recently found Full
Salvation, are tempted to say, 'Glory to God, now I am all right!'
forgetting that, although on the right road, the journey is before
them, and that the rule of the road is, '_As_ ye received the Lord
Jesus, _so_ walk in Him'. Do not forget the relation between those two
little words 'as' and 'so'.
Now the word _unwatchfulness_, or I might change it for _carelessness_,
is a very general term. I will touch upon two or three things in which
it shows itself. Going where Jesus could not go with you; to do that is
like playing with pitch, or with fire. Keeping company with the wrong
people: some of you lose there; treating Meetings and prayer lightly;
resenting little unkindnesses and persecution; carelessness of speech;
gossiping, frivolity, forgetting that whilst the Holy Ghost is a Spirit
of Joy, He is grieved by lightness and frivolous jesting. These are
some of the little holes through which the blessing drops out. You must
watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation.
Then, _holding back from testimony_ is a snare into which some of you
have fallen. Listen to me! Some of you have tried to testify, and your
very backwardness and fear have been holes in your bag through which
the blessing ha
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