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simply a power of representation, unequalled in its way, and yet more remarkable to us for what it failed of doing than for what it did. We could not but perceive two things. One, that she never spoke of home-ties, or children, or husband: not an allusion to either. The other, that every hill and every vale, the mounting mist and the resting shadow, all that gave life and beauty to her every-day pursuits, which seemed, indeed, all pictorial,--all these were informed and permeated, as it were, with one influence,--that of Remington. An uncomfortable sense of this made me say, as I finished the letter,-- "I am sorry for the poor bird!" "So am I," answered the minister, with a clouded brow; "and the more, as I think I see the bird is limed." "How?" I said, with a sort of horrified retreat from the expressed thought, though the thought itself haunted me. My husband seemed thinking the matter over, as if to clear it in his own mind before he spoke again. "I suppose there is a moral disease, which, through its connection with a newly awakened and brilliant intellect, does not enervate the whole character. I mean that this connection of moral weakness with the intellect gives a fatal strength to the character,--do you take me?" "Yes, I think so," said I. "She is lofty, self-poised,--confident in what never yet supported any one. Pride of character does not keep us from falling. Humility would help us in that way. Unfortunately, that, too, is often bought dearly. I mean that this virtue of humbleness, which makes us tender of others and afraid for ourselves, is at the expense of sorrowful and humiliating experience." "You speak as if you feared more for her than I do," said I, struck by the foreboding look in his face. "You women judge only by your own hearts, or by solitary instances; and you forget the inevitable downward course of wrong tendencies. Besides, she has neither lofty principle nor a strong will. You will think I mistake here; but I don't mean she has not wilfulness enough. A strong will generally excludes wilfulness,--and the converse." This conversation made me nervous. I had such an intense anxiety for her now, that I could not avoid expressing it often and strongly in my letters to her. I wondered Lewis was not more open-eyed. I blamed him for letting her run on so heedlessly into habits which might compromise her reputation for dignity and discretion, if no worse. Then I would recal
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