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Why do you live with a man you don't love?" she suddenly asked out of the utter stillness. It startled me, that question. It also embarrassed me, for I could feel my color mount as Susie's lapis-lazuli eyes rested on my face. "What makes you think I don't love him?" I countered, reminding myself that Susie, after all, was still a girl in her teens. "It's not a matter of thinking," was Susie's quiet retort. "I _know_ you don't." "Then I wish I could be equally certain," I said with a defensive stiffening of the lines of dignity. But Susie smiled rather wearily at my forlorn little parade of _hauteur_. Then she looked at the fire. "It's hell, isn't it, being a woman?" she finally observed, unconsciously paraphrasing a much older philosopher. "Sometimes," I admitted. "I don't see why you stand it," was her next meditative shaft in my direction. "What would you do about it?" I guardedly inquired. Susie's face took on one of its intent looks. She was only in her teens, but life, after all, hadn't dealt over-lightly with her. She impressed me, at the moment, as a secretly ardent young person whose hard-glazed little body might be a crucible of incandescent though invisible emotions. "What would you do about it?" I repeated, wondering what gave some persons the royal right of doing the questionable and making it seem unquestionable. "_Live!_" said Susie with quite unlooked-for emphasis. "_Live_--whatever it costs!" "Wouldn't you regard this as living?" I asked, after a moment of thought. "Not as you ought to be," averred Susie. "Why not?" I parried. Susie sighed. She began to see that it was beyond argument, I suppose. Then she too had her period of silence. "But what are you getting out of it?" she finally demanded. "What is going to happen? What ever _has_ happened?" "To whom?" I asked, resenting the unconscious cruelty of her questioning. "To you," was the reply of the hard-glazed young hedonist confronting me. "Are you flattering me with the inference that I was cut out for better things?" I interrogated as my gaze met Susie's. It was her turn to color up a bit. Then she sighed again, and shook her head. "I don't suppose it's doing either of us one earthly bit of good," she said with a listless small smile of atonement. "And I'm sorry." So we let the skeletons stalk away from our pleasant fireside and secrete themselves in their customary closets of silence. But I've
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