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ebody more powerful forbids me." "Who is more powerful--except Caesar himself?" I made no answer, but I rose and, crossing the rug, stood by her. I remember the look and the feel of the room very well; she lay back in a low chair upholstered in blue; the firelight, forbidden her face, played on the hand that held the screen, flushing its white to red. I could see her hair gleaming in the fantastically varying light that the flames gave as they left and fell. I was in a tumult of excitement and timidity. "More powerful than Caesar?" I asked, and my voice shook. "Don't call yourself Caesar." "Why not?" There was a momentary hesitation before the answer came low: "Because you mustn't laugh at yourself. I may laugh at you, but you mustn't yourself." I wondered at the words, the tone, the strange diffidence that infected even a speech so full of her gay bravery. A moment later she added a reason for her command. "You're so absurd that you mustn't laugh at yourself. And, Caesar, if you stay any longer, or--come again soon--other people will laugh at you." To this day I do not know whether she meant to give a genuine warning, or to strike a chord that should sound back defiance. "If ten thousand of them laugh, what is it to me? They dare laugh only behind my back," I said. She laughed before my face; the screen fell, and she laughed, saying softly, "Caesar, Caesar!" I was wonderfully happy in my perturbation. The great charm she had for me was to-day alloyed less than ever before by the sense of rawness which she, above all others, could compel me to feel. To-day she herself was not wholly calm, not mistress of herself without a struggle, without her moments of faintness. Yet now she appeared composed again, and there was nothing but merriment in her eyes. She seemed to have forgotten that I was supposed to be gone. I daresay that not to her, any more than to myself, could I seem quite like an ordinary boy; perhaps the more I forgot what was peculiar about me the more she remembered it, my oblivion serving to point her triumph. "And the Princess?" she asked, laughing still, but now again a little nervously. My exultation, finding vent in mischief and impelled by curiosity, drove me to a venture. "I shall tell the Princess that I kissed you," said I. The Countess suddenly sat upright. "And that you kissed me--several times," I continued. "How dare you?" she cried in a whisper; and he
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