owful months. In her poor, tortured
brain the idea formed that I, not she, was the sick person in our family
of two, and when we were at home together she insisted that I must lie
down and let her nurse me; then for hours she brooded over me, trying to
relieve the agony she believed I was experiencing. When at last she was
at peace her father and I took her home to Cape Cod and laid her in the
graveyard of the little church where we had met at the beginning of our
brief and beautiful friendship; and the subsequent loneliness I felt
was far greater than any I had ever suffered in the past, for now I had
learned the meaning of companionship.

Three months after Mrs. Addy's death I graduated. She had planned
to take me abroad, and during our first winter together we had spent
countless hours talking and dreaming of our European wanderings. When
she found that she must die she made her will and left me fifteen
hundred dollars for the visit to Europe, insisting that I must carry out
the plan we had made; and during her conscious periods she constantly
talked of this and made me promise that I would go. After her death it
seemed to me that to go without her was impossible. Everything of beauty
I looked upon would hold memories of her, keeping fresh my sorrow and
emphasizing my loneliness; but it was her last expressed desire that I
should go, and I went.

First, however, I had graduated--clad in a brandnew black silk gown, and
with five dollars in my pocket, which I kept there during the graduation
exercises. I felt a special satisfaction in the possession of that
money, for, notwithstanding the handicap of being a woman, I was said to
be the only member of my class who had worked during the entire course,
graduated free from debt, and had a new outfit as well as a few dollars
in cash.

I graduated without any special honors. Possibly I might have won
some if I had made the effort, but my graduation year, as I have just
explained, had been very difficult. As it was, I was merely a good
average student, feeling my isolation as the only woman in my class,
but certainly not spurring on my men associates by the display of any
brilliant gifts. Naturally, I missed a great deal of class fellowship
and class support, and throughout my entire course I rarely entered my
class-room without the abysmal conviction that I was not really wanted
there. But some of the men were goodhumoredly cordial, and several of
them are among my friend