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unity of explaining all." "Explain nothing," was my reply; "we understand each other perfectly. It is time for me to go in and dress." So I marched into the house, and left him looking foolish--if Frank ever _could_ look foolish--on the doorstep. As I hurried along the passages I encountered Lady Scapegrace. "What's the matter, Kate?" said she, following me into my room; "you look as if something had happened. No bad news, I trust, from Aunt Deborah?" I burst into tears. Kindness always overcomes me completely, and then I make a fool of myself. "Nothing's the matter," I sobbed out; "only I'm tired and nervous, Lady Scapegrace, and I want to dress." My hostess slipped quietly out of the room, and presently returned with some sal volatile and water: she made me drink it every drop. "I must have a talk to you, Kate," said she, "but not now; the dinner-bell will ring in ten minutes." And she too hurried away to perform her toilette. As I get older I take to moralizing, and I am afraid I waste a good deal of valuable time in speculating on the thoughts, ideas, and, so to speak, the inner life of my neighbours. It is curious to observe a large, well-dressed party seated at dinner, all apparently frank and open as the day, full of fun and good humour, saying whatever comes uppermost, and to all outward seeming laying bare every crevice and cranny of their hearts, and then to reflect that each one of the throng has a separate life, entirely distinct from that which he or she parades before the public, cherished perhaps with a miser's care or endured with a martyr's fortitude. Sir Guy, sitting at the bottom of his table, drinking rather more wine than usual--perhaps because it was Sunday, and the enforced decencies of the day had somewhat damped his spirits--looked a jovial, thoughtless, merry country gentleman, somewhat slang, it may be, not to say vulgar, but still open-hearted, joyous, and hospitable. Was there no skeleton in Sir Guy's mental cupboard? Were there no phantoms that _would_ rise up, like Banquo's ghost, to their seat, unbidden, at his board? While he smacked his great lips over those bumpers of dark red Burgundy, had he quite forgotten the days of old--the friends he had pledged and made fools of--the kind hearts he had loved and betrayed? Did he ever think of Damocles and the hanging sword? Could he summon courage to look into the future, or fortitude even to _think_ of the past? Sir Guy's wa
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