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ferently about it later. Let's get some fresh air and see what the shops have to offer." A pause, then she, timidly: "Would you mind very much if I--if I didn't--go on?" "You mean, if you left me?" She nodded without looking at him. He could not understand himself, but as he sat observing her, so young, so inexperienced and so undesirable, a pity of which he would not have dreamed his nature capable welled up in him, choking his throat with sobs he could scarcely restrain and filling his eyes with tears he had secretly to wipe away. And he felt himself seized of a sense of responsibility for her as strong in its solemn, still way as any of the paroxysms of his passion had been. He said: "My dear--you mustn't decide anything so important to you in a hurry." A tremor passed over her, and he thought she was going to dissolve in hysterics. But she exhibited once more that marvelous and mysterious self-control, whose secret had interested and baffled him. She said in her dim, quiet way: "It seems to me I just can't stay on." "You can always go, you know. Why not try it a few days?" He could feel the trend of her thoughts, and in the way things often amuse us without in the least moving us to wish to laugh, he was amused by noting that she was trying to bring herself to stay on, out of consideration for _his_ feelings! He said with a kind of paternal tenderness: "Whenever you want to go, I am willing to arrange things for you--so that you needn't worry about money. But I feel that, as I am older than you, I ought to do all I can to keep you from making a mistake you might soon regret." She studied him dubiously. He saw that she--naturally enough--did not believe in his disinterestedness, that she hadn't a suspicion of his change, or, rather collapse, of feeling. She said: "If you ask it, I'll stay a while. But you must promise to--to be kind to me." There was only gentleness in his smile. But what a depth of satirical self-mockery and amusement at her innocent young egotism it concealed! "You'll never have reason to speak of that again, my dear," said he. "I--can--trust you?" she said. "Absolutely," replied he. "I'll have another room opened into this suite. Would you like that?" "If you--if you don't mind." He stood up with sudden boyish buoyance. "Now--let's go shopping. Let's amuse ourselves." She rose with alacrity. She eyed him uncertainly, then flung her arms round his neck and k
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