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y yet quenched. "You are kind enough to wish to know about me; and too well bred to ask--now that the time is come. Shall I speak of myself?" Her voiceless lips found a word. "Then--_It_ began in college--after my uncle died and left nothing for me to go on with. . . . I worked my way through--by my wits. . . . Up to that time it was only luck and card-sense--and luck again--the ability to hold the best cards at the best time--hold them honestly, I mean. It happens--I don't know why or what laws govern it. Some men hold them--always hold them--with intervals of bad fortune--but only intervals." He gazed thoughtfully at the rag carpet, passed a well-shaped hand over his forehead. "Yes, it is the truth. . . . And so, Fortune linked arms with me . . . and I drifted into it--gradually--not all at once . . . lower--always a little lower--until--what _you_ saw occurred." She would not meet his eyes, perhaps with an idea of sparing him. He said: "You know nothing of such things, of course. . . . I am--on a commission basis for doing what--they threw me out of that hotel for doing. . . . Of course, a man can fall lower--but not much lower. . . . The business from which I receive commissions is not honest--a square game, as they say. Some games may be square for a while; no games are perfectly square all the time. . . . I have heard of honest gamblers; I never saw one. . . . There may be some; but I'm afraid they're like good Indians. . . . And that is the way in which Life and I are situated." After a while she managed to look at him. "Could you tell me--are you--your circumstances----" "I am not in want," he said gently. "Then it is not--not necessity----" "No. It is easier and more interesting than for me to earn a decent living." "Is that the only reason?" "Yes, I think so." "Have you no--regrets?" "Sometimes. . . . I am not immune to shame. . . . I wonder whether you know what it cost me to come here." A dull flush mounted to his forehead, but he faced her steadily enough. "You saw me kicked out of a hotel by an Irish servant because I was not fit to be tolerated among reputable people. . . . And you did not pass by on the other side. . . . Under your clear eyes my spirit died a thousand shameful deaths while I went with you to your destination. . . . The contempt of the whole world burnt me; and your compassion drove every flame into me----" He checked himself, swallowed, forced a
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