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. "Thou hast said it, Aluisi; this is not the writing of the king!" "Nay, beloved Sovereign Lady," the Chamberlain made answer, as he picked it up, and held it before her; "this is but a memorandum made for your Majesty's convenience, but attested under the seal of the kingdom. The original Will is in the keeping of the Lord of the Privy Seals, awaiting your command. It was thought that your Majesty would wish to see it before the Council should be assembled." She understood and bowed her head in silence, while all hope died out of her face. Aluisi advisedly used the ceremonious form by which he was accustomed to address the Queen in public, hoping to hint to her of some necessary preparation to control the meeting of the Council that could not, in any event, be long deferred. They lingered wistfully, seeking vainly for words that might not hurt her; but Caterina looked at them beseechingly, with dim eyes--her lips moving without sound. The Lady Beata understood. "I go now to pray the dear Christ for thee--the Man of Sorrows," she said with inexpressible tenderness. "And later--Carinissima--I will come again, and thou wilt rest." So young--so sorely stricken--she knelt in the cold moonlight alone--her hands clasped in passionate repression on her throbbing heart--"Mater Dei!" she moaned: "Death--and then _this_!--If but it need not have been told me! If I might but have kept the _memory_ of my happiness!" Only the stars and the pitying angels looked down on the fierce conflict of grief and love and disillusion with which her desolate young soul wrestled alone through the long, midnight vigil. How should she separate these two beautiful faiths which had been enthroned as one in the happy depths of her guileless heart, without perilling her very trust in God! Yet, as the sad day dawned over the hills and sea, she knew that God was still in His Heaven, behind the clouds--while she clung as a drowning mariner--the more desperately for her weakness--to the spar of this faith in the wreck of her happiness, though the love to which her whole being had moved in rhythmic content was as a lost star, glimmering uncertainly behind the mists. But through the desolate night-watches the Lady of the Bernardini in the ante-chamber of the Queen had been agonizing in prayer for her until thought was spent; and now she had moved out upon the loggia and stood there waiting for the dawn that seemed long-deferred, in a
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