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of virtue in America," he went on. "A crowd of painted women; faces green and lavender, moving like a procession of bizarre automatons and chanting in Chinese, 'We are pure. We are chaste and pure.' A parade of psychopathic barbarians dressed in bells, metals, animal skins, astrologer hats and Scandinavian ornaments. A combination of Burmese dancer and Babylonian priest. I ask for nothing more." He laughed. He had half consciously tried to give words to an image the girl had stirred in him. She interrupted, "That's me." He looked at her face in a momentary surprise. "I hate people, too," she said. "I would like to be like one of those women." "Or else a huntress riding on a black river in the moon. I was trying to draw a picture of you. And perhaps of myself. You have a faculty of ... of ... Funny, things I say are usually only reflections of the people I talk to. You don't mind being a psychopathic barbarian?" "No," she laughed quietly, "because I understand what you mean." "I don't mean anything." "I know. You talk because you have nothing to say. And I like to listen to you because I understand." This was somewhat less jarring, though still a bit crude. Her admiration would be more pleasant were it more difficult to discover. He became silent and aware of the street. There had been no street for several minutes--merely vivid eyes and dark lips. Now there were people--familiar unknowns to be found always in streets, their faces withholding something, like unfinished sentences. He had lost interest and felt piqued. His loss of interest in his talk was perhaps merely a reflection of her own. "I remember hearing you were a socialist. That's hard to believe." There was no relation between them now. He would have to work it up again. "No, my parents are. I'm not." "Russians?" "Yes. Jews." "I'm curious about your ideals." "I haven't any." "Not even art?" "No." "A wingless little eagle on a barren tree," he smiled. "I advise you to complicate life with ideals. The more the better. They are more serviceable than a conscience, in which I presume you're likewise lacking, because you don't have to use them. A conscience is an immediate annoyance, whereas ideals are charming procrastinations. They excuse the inanity of the present. Good Lord, what do you think about all day without ideals to guide you?" Dorn looked at her and felt again delight with himself. It was because her in
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