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we are thus assailed. But then where would have been her merit? I should only cheat her out of the sweetest satisfaction in life,--a victory over a wicked suggestion. My presence would make the Evil One take to flight, and now she was wrestling with him. I felt sure she would not be conquered; for I could not have looked on to see her defeat. But who can estimate the power of a woman's curiosity, where the interests which are her very life are concerned? She paused by the desk. The letter was upside down to her. Her hand was upon it to turn it, and she said boldly, aloud,--having forgotten me entirely,-- "I have a _right_ to know what she says." Then there was a hesitating pause, while she trembled on the brink of dishonor,--then a revulsion, and an indignant "Pshaw!" It was a contemptuous denial of her own flimsy self-justification. She snatched away her hand, as she said it, with an angry frown. The blood rushed back to her face. "I ought to be ashamed of myself!" she exclaimed, energetically. In a minute she was bustling about, putting away her things. In passing the window, now that she was freed from the thraldom of her intense thinking, she saw me lying where I might have been the witness to her inclination to wrong. She started guiltily, and then began bunglingly to draw from me whether I had noticed anything of it. I took her hands, and looked her full in the face. "I love you and honor you from the very bottom of my soul, Kate!" "Not now! You can't! You must despise me!" she answered, turning away with a swelling bosom. "I declare I never held you in so high estimation. Evil thoughts must come, even to the holiest saint; but only those who admit and welcome them are guilty,--not those who repel and conquer them. Surely not!" "Thank you, Charlie. That is encouraging and comforting doctrine; and I think it is true. But what a lesson I have had to-day!" "Yes, it has been a striking one. I will write about it to Mary." "Oh, no! for mercy's sake don't expose me further!" "Then you wish her to think you are too immaculate to be even tempted! stronger, purer even than our Saviour! for he knew temptation. You are above it,--are you? Come, Kate,--insincerity, pretension, and cowardice are not your failings, and I shall tell Mary of this incident, which has deeply moved me, and will, I know, really interest her. Here comes Alice." The little lady presented herself before us all smiles, con
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