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to be worth telling. Some of us go up, you know. Some of us go down. You're doing pretty well, I hear." "I suppose so," I replied; "I've climbed a few feet up a greasy pole, and am trying to stick there. But it is of you I want to talk. Can't I do anything for you?" We were passing under a gas-lamp at the moment. He thrust his face forward close to mine, and the light fell full and pitilessly upon it. "Do I look like a man you could do anything for?" he said. We walked on in silence side by side, I casting about for words that might seize hold of him. "You needn't worry about me," he continued after a while, "I'm comfortable enough. We take life easily down here where I am. We've no disappointments." "Why did you give up like a weak coward?" I burst out angrily. "You had talent. You would have won with ordinary perseverance." "Maybe," he replied, in the same even tone of indifference. "I suppose I hadn't the grit. I think if somebody had believed in me it might have helped me. But nobody did, and at last I lost belief in myself. And when a man loses that, he's like a balloon with the gas let out." I listened to his words in indignation and astonishment. "Nobody believed in you!" I repeated. "Why, _I_ always believed in you, you know that I--" Then I paused, remembering our "candid criticism" of one another. "Did you?" he replied quietly, "I never heard you say so. Good-night." In the course of our Strandward walking we had come to the neighbourhood of the Savoy, and, as he spoke, he disappeared down one of the dark turnings thereabouts. I hastened after him, calling him by name, but though I heard his quick steps before me for a little way, they were soon swallowed up in the sound of other steps, and, when I reached the square in which the chapel stands, I had lost all trace of him. A policeman was standing by the churchyard railings, and of him I made inquiries. "What sort of a gent was he, sir?" questioned the man. "A tall thin gentleman, very shabbily dressed--might be mistaken for a tramp." "Ah, there's a good many of that sort living in this town," replied the man. "I'm afraid you'll have some difficulty in finding him." Thus for a second time had I heard his footsteps die away, knowing I should never listen for their drawing near again. I wondered as I walked on--I have wondered before and since--whether Art, even with a capital A, is quite worth all the s
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