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, with her grandiose notions, and fondness of big people, and all that. Just what Paul hates. Did you not see him wince when she made that remark about Lady St. Emeraud? Maud is awfully obtuse," continued Sybil, glad of a listener; "she never saw. But you know, Leo, even father used to laugh at her love of swagger--though she got it from him." "You never said this before;" muttered Leo, surprised. She had no inclination to go away now. "Because Maud and I--of course we have held by each other always, and I should have gone on holding, if she had. But I am nothing to her now;" said poor Sybil bitterly. She had a weak, shallow nature, but it was capable of affection--and Maud's selfish withdrawal of affection, her complete indifference to all that did not concern her own individual interests at a time when in the natural course of things the sisters would have been drawn together by an especially close tie, was felt as keenly as Sybil could feel anything. "And you think Paul----?" hesitated Leo. "It's Paul's own look out. He may make her mend her ways. She thinks a lot of him, of course." "Does she--is she--is she in love with him, Syb?" "In love with him? I suppose so--after a fashion. She's in love with being married, and having a country house of her own, and a husband to domineer over. And if he should come in for a title----" "But that is not _Paul_;" said Leo, in a low voice. She had herself well in hand, but deep down there were strange emotions at work, stirred by the above. "Do you mean--I wish you would say what you really mean?--I--I sometimes wonder myself----," she stopped. "Oh, you mustn't take all this too seriously, Leo. Don't look at me as if we were a couple of conspirators. It's no use being cross with Maud because she is what she is. She hasn't fine feelings--no one ever thought she had. But Paul has found that out by this time, I dare say; and when his chance comes he can inoculate her with his. At the worst, he has enough for both;"--and having thus summed up the situation and relieved her feelings at the same time, Sybil turned to other matters. "Yet even _she_ sees," cried Leo, inwardly, "she sees something, though she does not know, does not guess what it is. And I who do, oh, how shall I bear it,--how shall I bear it? And this is only the beginning--they haven't yet actually begun the real thing,--they are only looking at it, and he----?" She heard Sue's voice calling her, and
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