FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   38   39   40   41   42   43   44   45   46   47   48   49   50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62  
63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   >>   >|  
he said. "I know you. I like you. I just wanted to know if you had ever been engaged--in the broad sense--engaged to a woman--with promises to fulfill. I just wanted to ask." "No," said I. "There!" said he. "I knew it all the time." "Was there another question?" I asked. "Why, yes," he said. "Why, yes. I believe I did have another. Now, what was it? I had another question. It was awkward, too, if I remember. I had another." We both laughed then. "Yet it seems so strange for me to ask these questions now, doesn't it?" he went on, fingering the pages of a book on the desk. "It is so early and a good deal more natural for you to speak to me than for me to speak to you. But, good God! there is a reason if you only knew--a reason. Let us say, for instance, that I might not be here then." "Ask it, sir," I said. "Why, I was only going to say that, in case you should succeed,--I doubt if you do succeed,--but in case you should succeed in causing her to love you, there would be no withdrawal on your part. Little Julie--my little daughter! Neither of you has known what it means yet. And, Estabrook, when she does, it must not go wrong. I know her well. She will never love but one man. He must not withdraw when he has won her!" I started to speak angrily. "Wait!" he cried, with his hands clenched. "He must not be shaken from her by anything--anything for which she is not to blame herself--no matter how strange or terrible--anything. Nothing will come. I know it. But that must be promised me--to stand by her, no matter what misfortune might descend upon her." "What could?" I asked in a trembling voice. "Nothing," the Judge said. "It is not in God's character to allow such a thing. When you love her, Estabrook, my boy, you will not ask me that question in answer to mine." "No," I said at once. "There need be no doubts between us, sir. It is not necessary for either of us to answer." His whole countenance lit up as if my words had fed his soul. I should be sorry to have wiped from my memory the impression of that old man's look, as, without taking his eyes from my face, he reached for his hat. Yet, to-night, when I, for perhaps the last time, realize again the presence of some infernal, undefined evil, I wonder that I should have been so great a fool and so willingly have neglected even the prudence of a lover. I wonder that I made so blind a bargain. I wonder that I did not ask him, before it was too
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   38   39   40   41   42   43   44   45   46   47   48   49   50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62  
63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   >>   >|  



Top keywords:
succeed
 

question

 
wanted
 

matter

 
answer
 
reason
 
Estabrook
 

engaged

 

Nothing


strange

 

doubts

 

trembling

 

descend

 

misfortune

 

terrible

 

promised

 

character

 

infernal


undefined

 

presence

 

realize

 

willingly

 

bargain

 

neglected

 
prudence
 
countenance
 

memory


impression

 

reached

 

taking

 

fingering

 
questions
 
instance
 

natural

 

promises

 

fulfill


laughed

 

remember

 

awkward

 
withdraw
 
started
 
angrily
 

shaken

 

clenched

 
withdrawal

causing

 

Little

 

Neither

 

daughter