should have sent her
here. He has opened his heart to her as is not usual with him, and she
can help him if she will."
"Oh, I will! I will! I long to help him," murmured Nan brokenly. She
stood gazing at the pictures until the curtain dropped once more, and
she found herself being escorted back to her seat.
Mr Vanburgh looked at her silently. It was not possible for him to be
whiter than usual, but his lips were contracted in a nervous pressure,
and a nerve was throbbing visibly at his temples. Nan stretched out her
hand impetuously and laid it over his; the fingers were icy cold to her
touch, and she rubbed them between her own with tender care.
"Thank you!" he whispered breathlessly, and looked at her with kindly
eyes.
"You are a wise child. You understand how to console. Words are too
weak. You judged too quickly, you see, in taking for granted that I had
always been alone. Fifteen years ago--you saw their portraits?"
"Yes. They are all beautiful; and oh, the boy!"
"My son!" sighed the father softly. "Yes, if you could have seen my
son. It was not only I, but every one who met him said the same thing:
that they had never seen his equal. All that I did was for him, to
prepare for the time when he should succeed me. He was so strong, so
full of life; it seemed impossible that he could die."
"Mr Vanburgh, how did you bear it? How can people go through such
trials and live? To lose everything at once, and live on, and keep
one's reason--I can't understand it. You must be very good!"
The old man smiled sadly.
"No, child, I am not good. I had my time of madness and rebellion, and
my old self died, never to revive again; but I have kept my faith in
God. I could not afford to lose that, as well as everything else. He
has taken from me all that made life beautiful--first my dear ones, and
then the strength which might have made it possible to find fresh
interests; but such discipline must be for some great end, and I am
growing nearer and nearer to the time when I shall know the reason.
There is an explanation ready for me, and I am waiting to hear it. You
will never have a trouble sent to you in life, child, without the
strength to bear it; and the greater the trial the greater may be the
reward. Even in this life I have had compensations; when the sun of
prosperity is shining we do not realise our need of God, but when the
clouds gather, we turn homewards like tired children, and th
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