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sual. She looked up with a start. "Oh--I didn't see you, Doctor! Mr. Macnair was with me. Did you wish to see him?" She could play at the game of carelessness better than he. "Where is mother?" she added quickly. "In her room, I think. Esther, are you going to marry Macnair?" The girl slipped off her second glove, blew gently into its fingers, smoothed them and laid it with nice care upon the table beside its fellow. "I do not know." He realised with a shock that he had expected an indignant denial. "You do not love him!" "No. Not now. He knows that. And I do not expect ever to love him. But perhaps, after a long while, if I could make him happy--it is so terrible not to be happy," she finished pathetically. Callandar could have groaned aloud; the danger was so clear. And how could he, of all men, warn her. Yet he must try. He came quickly across to where she stood and compelled her gaze to his. "Do not make that mistake, Esther! It is fatal. Try to believe that in spite of--of everything, I am speaking disinterestedly. You are young and the young hate suffering. You would marry him, out of pity. But I tell you that no man's happiness comes to him that way. You will have sacrificed yourself to no purpose. The risk is too awful. Wait. Time is kind. You will know it, some day. But even though you do not believe it now--wait. Wait forever, rather than marry a man to whom you cannot give your heart." "That is your advice?" She spoke heavily. "You would like some day to see me marry a man I could--love?" "Yes, a thousand times yes!" "I shall think over what you say." She was still gravely controlled but it was a control which would not last much longer. She glanced around the empty room with a quick caught breath. "Why are you left all alone?" "Is a keeper necessary?" Then, ashamed of his irritation and willing to end a scene which threatened to make things harder for both of them, he added in his ordinary tone, "I really do not know who is responsible for such unparalleled neglect. Jane played me to sleep, I fancy. She said her mother was upstairs but would be down presently. It must be late. I had better go." "Wait a moment, I will see if there is any message from mother." As she left the room her light scarf slipped from her shoulders and fell softly across his arm. Callandar crushed it passionately to his lips and then, folding it carefully, laid it beside the gloves upon the table. E
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