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ple (especially, perhaps, things and people that obstinately resist) part of our own domain--their currency coinage of ours, with the stamp of our mint, bearing our superscription--causing the writ of our issuing to run where it did not run before--is not this, however ill-expressed (and bigger men than I have failed, and will fail, fully to express it), something like what the human spirit attempts? Or is there, too, a true gospel of drawing in--of renouncing? In the essential, mind you!--It is easy in trifles, in indulgences and luxuries. But to surrender the exercise and expansion of self? If that be right, if that be true--at any rate it was not Jenny Driver. She was a strong, natural-born swimmer, cast now for the first time into open sea--after the duck ponds of her Smalls and her Simpsons. It was not the smooth waters which tested, tried, or in innermost truth delighted her most. All this in a very tiny corner? Of course. Will you find me anywhere that is not a corner, please? Alexander worked in one, and Caesar. "What does it matter then what I do?" "No more," I must answer, being no philosopher and therefore unprepared with a theory, "than it matters whether or not you are squashed under yonder train. But if you think--on your own account--that the one matters, why, for all we can say, perhaps the other does." That duck pond of the Simpsons'! By apparent chance--it may be, in fact, by some unusual receptivity in my own bearing--that very day Chat talked to me about it. I had grown friendlier toward Chat, having perceived that the cunning in her--(it was there, and refuted Cartmell's charge of mere foolishness)--ran to no more than a decent selfishness, informed by years of study of Jenny, deflected by a spinsterish admiration of Octon's claim to unquestioned male dominion. Her reason said--"We are very well as we are. I am comfortable. I am 'putting by.' Jenny's marriage might make things worse." The spinster added, "But this must end some day. Let it end--when it must--in an irresistible (perhaps to Chat's imagination a rather lurid) conquest." Paradoxically her instinct (for if anything be an instinct, selfishness is) squared with what I had deciphered of Jenny's strategy--in immediate action at least. Chat would not have Octon shown the door; neither would she set him at the head of the table--just yet. Being comfortable, she abhorred all chance of convulsions--as Jenny, being powerful, resented all thr
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