the
free lodgings in the Orphan-House, and lived with him. But alas! we were
not aware, that because God is greatly glorified by the love and union of
His people, for this very reason Satan particularly hates it, and will,
therefore, in every possible way, seek to divide them. We ought to have
especially prayed, and that frequently, that the Lord would keep us
together in love; instead of which, I do not think that we at all feared
disunion, as we loved one another so much. For this reason our great
adversary soon got an advantage by our neglecting prayer concerning this
point, and we were disunited, and love and union were not fully restored
between us till after we had been for some time separated.

Having heard that a very rich lady of title, residing at
Frankfort-on-the-Maine, about two hundred miles from Halle, was a
very pious person, and,in visiting a charitable institution at
Dusselthal, had given very liberally; and wishing much about the
commencement of the year 1827 to help a poor relative with a small sum
of money, and also to pay the remainder of the debt which
I had contracted for my traveling expenses to Switzerland: I
wrote to this lady, asking her to lend me a small sum of money,
in actual amount only little above L5., but, as money in the North
of Germany has much more value than in England, it was as much as L 12. or
L 15. in this country. Whilst I was writing, however, the thought occurred
to me, Suppose this lady should not be a believer? I, therefore, pointed
out to her the way of salvation, and related to her how I had been brought
to the knowledge of the truth. But I received no answer by the time I
might have had one.--I would just notice, that since 1829 my practice, on
account of what I found in the Scriptures, Rom. xiii. 8, as it regards
borrowing money, has been different. And, moreover, I have considered that
there is no ground to go away from the door of the Lord to that of a
believer, so long as He is so willing to supply our need.

About January 20th I was one day very wretched. Satan obtained an
advantage over me through over-much work; for I was in the habit of
writing about fourteen hours a day. One morning I was in so wretched a
state, that I said in my heart, what have I now gained by becoming a
Christian? Afterwards I walked about in the streets in this wretched state
of heart, and at last I went into a confectioner's shop, where wine and
ardent spirits were sold, to eat and to d