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others than with me--I have often said to myself that it is unworthy of a man to allow himself to be subjected by love, unworthy to make a woman the mistress of his thoughts, of his desires; that a man should strive for higher aims, aspire to nobler things." "To nobler things? Now tell me, you monster, is there anything nobler than a woman? Is there a higher aim than to win her love?" "No; that is true, there is nothing higher!" cried he passionately. "No there is nothing nobler. Oh, forgive me, Ludovicka, I was a heathen, who denies his goddess, and finds fault with her out of excess of feeling. My God! I have suffered so much through you and your cruelty! And I tell you if you had not now at last heard my petition, at last granted me a rendezvous, then--" "Then you would have killed yourself," interrupted she--"then you would have stabbed yourself on the threshold of my door, while you cursed me. Is not that what you would have said?" "No; I would have found out the man whom you preferred to me, and I would have killed him, and you I would have despised--that is what I would have said. But no, no, I can not conceive of or imagine myself despising you--loving you no more! My whole soul is yours, and my heart flames up toward you as if it were one vast and living lake of fire. You smile; you do not believe me, Ludovicka! But I tell you, if you do not believe me, neither do you believe in love itself." "I do not believe in it, either, cousin; and you are quite right, your heart is a lake of fire. You know, though, all fires become extinct?" "When fuel is denied them, Ludovicka--not till then. They burn constantly, if supplied with constant fuel." "So then, my Electoral Prince, my heart is the fuel you would require?" "Yes, my Princess, I do require it. I implore it of you. Be good, Ludovicka, torment me not. Let me at last feel myself blessed--let me put my arm around you, and say and think, she is mine! mine she remains!" "Mine she remains!" repeated Ludovicka, sighing. "Alas! Frederick, how long ere you will no longer wish that I were yours; how long ere all the oaths of your heart will be forgotten and forever hushed? I have heard it from all women--they all say that the love of men is perishable; that, like a flash of lightning, it shines forth with vivid blaze, then vanishes away." "And they have all deceived you or been deceived themselves, Ludovicka. The love of men never expires, unless forci
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