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t notice the intense excitement under which her daughter labored, the alteration of her features, and the incoherence of her words. "What is the matter?" she asked, somewhat alarmed. "What are you saying?" "I feel unwell," answered her daughter in a scarcely audible voice, "quite unwell. Come, let us go home." As soon as they reached home, Mlle. Gilberte took refuge in her own room. She was in haste to be alone, to recover her self-possession, to collect her thoughts, more scattered than dry leaves by a storm wind. It was a momentous event which had just suddenly fallen in her life so monotonous and so calm--an inconceivable, startling event, the consequences of which were to weigh heavily upon her entire future. Staggering still, she was asking herself if she was not the victim of an hallucination, and if really there was a man who had dared to conceive and execute the audacious project of coming thus under the eyes of her mother, of declaring his love, and of asking her in return a solemn engagement. But what stupefied her more still, what confused her, was that she had actually endured such an attempt. Under what despotic influence had she, then, fallen? To what undefinable sentiments had she obeyed? And if she had only tolerated! But she had done more: she had actually encouraged. By detaining her mother when she wished to go home (and she had detained her), had she not said to this unknown?--"Go on, I allow it: I am listening." And he had gone on. And she, at the moment of returning home, she had engaged herself formally to reflect, and to return the next day at a stated hour to give an answer. In a word, she had made an appointment with him. It was enough to make her die of shame. And, as if she had needed the sound of her own words to convince herself of the reality of the fact, she kept repeating loud, "I have made an appointment--I, Gilberte, with a man whom my parents do not know, and of whose name I was still ignorant yesterday." And yet she could not take upon herself to be indignant at the imprudent boldness of her conduct. The bitterness of the reproaches which she was addressing to herself was not sincere. She felt it so well, that at last: "Such hypocrisy is unworthy of me," she exclaimed, "since now, still, and without the excuse of being taken by surprise, I would not act otherwise." The fact is, the more she pondered, the less she could succeed in discovering
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