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istake. If I only knew what I had done!" "You've done nothing. I wouldn't worry if I were you." "I can't help worrying. You don't know, Rhoda. The bitter and terrible part of this friendship is, and always has been, that I am under obligations to Dr. Cautley. I owe everything to him; I cannot tell you what he has done for me, and here I am, not allowed, and I never shall be allowed, to do anything for him." A sob struggled in Miss Quincey's throat. Rhoda was silent. Did she know? Very dimly, with a mere intellectual perception, but still a great deal better than the little arithmetic teacher could have told her, she understood the desire of that innocent person, not for love, not for happiness, but just for leave to lay down her life for this friend, this deity of hers, to be consumed in sacrifice. And the bitter and terrible thing was that she was not allowed to do it. The friend had no use for the life, the deity no appetite for the sacrifice. "Don't think about it," she said; it seemed the best thing to say in the singular circumstances. "It will all come right." By this time Miss Quincey had got the better of the sob in her throat. "It may," she replied with dignity; "but I shall not be the first to make advances." "Advances? Rather not. But if I thought he was thinking things--he isn't, you know, he's not that sort; still, if I thought it I should have it out with him." "How could you have it--'out with him'?" "Oh I should just ask him what he thought of me; or better still, tell him what I thought of him." Miss Quincey shrank visibly from the bold suggestion. "Would you? Oh, that would never do. You won't mind my saying so, but I think it would look a little indelicate. Of course it would be very different if it were a woman; if it were you for instance." "I should do it any way. It's the straightest thing." "I daresay, dear, in your friendships it is. But I think you can hardly judge of this. You do not know Dr. Cautley as I do." "No," said Rhoda meekly, "perhaps I don't." Not for worlds would she have destroyed that beautiful illusion. "It has been," continued Miss Quincey, "a very peculiar, a very interesting relationship. Strange too--considering. If you had asked me six months ago I should have told you that the thing was impossible, or rather, that in nine cases out of ten--I mean I should have said it was highly improbable that Dr. Cautley would take the faintest interest in
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