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he touched the Doctor on the shoulder with a quick, nervous tap of his hand,) "I shall marry her,--God bless her!" And Reuben, by the very speech, as well as by the thoughts that had gone before, had worked himself into a passion of devotion. "Be careful, my son," said the old gentleman; "remember how your enthusiasm has betrayed you in a still more serious matter." Reuben smiled bitterly. "Don't reproach me with that, father. It seems to me that I am acting now more on the side of the Christian charities than either you or Aunt Eliza." And with this he strode out, leaving the Doctor in an agony of apprehension. A moment after, Miss Eliza, who was ever on the alert, and without whose knowledge a swallow could not dart into the chimneys of the parsonage, came rustling into the study. "Well, Benjamin, what does Reuben say?" "Given over to his idols, Eliza,--given over to his idols. We can only pray God to have him in His holy keeping." It would be impossible to fathom all the emotions of Reuben during that interview with his father. It would be wrong to say that the view of future marriage had not often held up its brilliant illusions before him; it would be wrong to say that they had never been associated with the charming vivacity of Adele, as well as, at other times, with the sweet graces of Rose Elderkin. But these illusions had been of a character so transitory, so fleeting, that he had come to love their brilliant changes, and to look forward with some dread to the possible permanence of them, or such fixedness as should take away the charming drift of his vagaries. If, in some wanton and quite impossible moment, the modest Rose had conquered her delicacy so far as to put her hand in his, and say, "Will you be my husband?" he would not have been so much outraged by her boldness as disturbed by the reflection that a pleasant little dream of love was broken up, and that his thought must come to that practical solution of a _yes_ or _no_ which would make an end of his delightful doubts and yearnings. The positive and the known are, after all, so much less, under imaginative measure, than the uncertain and the dreamy! And if he could have taken the spinster's old tales of Adele's regard for him and devotion to him at their highest truth, (which he never did, because of the girl's provoking familiarity and indifference,) he would have felt a great charm in his life cut off. Yet now he wanders in se
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